I'm constantly drinking before or/and after work. I don't usually drink when I don't have to work. I don't see how living this life and working a job like this for the rest of my working life makes sense. I don't see how living this life could be worth it. I already see a psychiatrist, the meds make me functional but I still don't see life as being worth it. I tend to read on Buddhism as a way to escape the suffering that is life. Do any of you relate?
So do you think the job is the problem? I'm not going to tell you to change that because reality doesn't work that way. Maybe try to find a hobby or social activity, depending on your preference for being around people.
It's a struggle. I wish you the best, comrade.