I'm not really sure why, maybe this concept is overloading my weakbaby social capabilities. But looking at a circular owl profile pic shitposting loudly, or a username venting about something in main, and making the connection that those words were said by an entire human being with a life of their own hundreds or thousands of miles away is just sort of short circuiting my brain. Obviously I have intellectually, logically known that you're all people, because you say things, but actually conceptualising it...
That is a huge amount of person by volume for such a little bear website.
It's tough to visualise, like even for a small hexagonal bear post, if every profile pic and username is an actual person, (THEY ARE) then there are more of them than could comfortably fit in my living room. That many entire real people, in one place, badposting. Being gay(and more), saying 'Death to Amerikkka', sharing heartfelt support for people and movements, yeah that's too many people, this is definitely short circuiting my brain.
May update when I figure out how to make my grey matter stop having a panic attack.
When I'm internet friends with a person, or a penpal(did it once) of someone, that's just one person! I probably know them, and it's easier to conceptualise their being. Who Are You, cool owl????
I think that's what it comes down to, though. To me, I get that there are 8 billion little flesh automatons on earth, but they're so far away and trying to visualise them becomes impossible, disconnected. That's pure scale, I guess, but there's already more than a crowd (three) in this goofy thread, and the variety of posts makes the individual existence of each person really obvious, all at once.
Also good! Do not stop!