I wish coffee was a big drug for me like everybody else.
This is gonna be stupid and vague but my brain only shifts into high-activity write-mode at like 2 or 3 am. I get hit with genuis ideas and brilliant little plots, and then I have two options: wreck myself on an all-nighter before work, or sleep on these ideas and be unable to write jack shit next morning.
It's so stupid, all through the day my brain is asleep, then at night I become borderline manic and wanna write shit. Why, pls help.
BIT IDEA: 48 hour days where I get that maybe four hours of being free from anxiety-inducing external pressure. Just dont fuckin sleep lmao.
It's part of why I stopped doing it. My mental health was flowing down the drain and it wasn't worth holding on to something that was bringing me pain.
And despite coming out trans like within the year of me leaving, I still occasionally see stuff about what a huge Transphobe I am, because I one time made a typo that accidentally misgendered someone once.