Had a dream about my mom last night. But it was really weird. I was somehow in space and she was an astronaut and she was traversing warp holes and I was like "mom, isn't that scary?" and she seemed unphased by that.
My mom passed in 2021 for reference.
You fkn bet I do.
Her name was Laurie, and I loved her and she loved me. She was perfect. Faults, baggage and all. We split up after a few years and tried to go our separate ways.
One day I was in a library and was compelled to pick up the fucking obituaries. And there she was. I still don’t know what happened to her, and this was over 15 years ago.
I’ve had relationships since Laurie. I’ve loved again, opened my heart up again. But it’s not the same. I dream about her a couple times a month. Still. When I was at a really low point in my life, I used to dream about her telling me she was waiting for me and to come find her. I almost did it. I spent a lot of time in counseling afterward.
I still think of her. I still miss her. I’m sure a shrink would have a lot to tell me about it.
goddamn i feel this. my first gf(dated 10 years ago and i still chatted with sometimes) died last month. It's a real mind fuck. And the way i found out was similar to your story. I had talked to her June 30th, got back from family vacation 2 weeks later and got on Facebook on July 15th. For some reason I wanted to look up something on my FB that involved her so i searched her name, and i found a bunch of posts from people i knew were her friends(i wasnt friends with them on FB and my dead friends FB was locked down to where i couldnt see those posts on her FB page) saying she died from liver failure. I knew she had cirrhosis but she was diagnosed last year and that is a fast death even for cirrhosis. it's a real mind fuck.
Thanks for sharing, sounds like you really loved her.
Counseling helped me out quite a bit too getting on with my mom's passing.