• came_apart_at_Kmart [he/him, comrade/them]
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    3 years ago

    I've lived in some crunchy, edge of the hinterlands type of situations. Some with a small group, others totally alone in an old cabin with a cat, no cell phone / internet service, and my thoughts.

    I once ran out of heating oil and only had heat from a wood stove I loaded every 12 hours with scrap oak I had gathered from a wood mill that summer. I couldn't get a delivery of more oil because the roads were too fucked up for an entire month.... an uncommon but not rare occurrence. I didn't freeze to death, but it was a lot of effort to keep the house warm. I worked ~300 yards away (an old building with a shitty old heater, so you had to leave your layers on inside), but I had to keep my stove loaded and blazing so pipes didn't freeze while I was out.

    It was deep into some mountains where a foot of snow might dump overnight and the winding, rarely serviced county roads were treacherous on good weather days in summer, let alone the 40-50° below freezing that we occasionally dropped to. It was beautiful at times and I wouldn't trade those days and their instructive frustrations for anything, but they taught me not to take conveniences for granted.

    I love being in nature and being intimately tied to it in my daily work, but I know deep in my heart that it's an unrequited love. People who want to "challenge" themselves using nature are fools that end up humbled if they're lucky, or destroyed.