I'm great at navigating all of these other inter personal/political dynamics except when we have to actually work together on the basis of politics. My experience of doing political work with other volunteers doing political work has been like working through the 5 stages of grief, where when I reach "acceptance," I'm basically like "fuck this, it isn't worth sacrificing my mental health" except this road of self improvement and political/historical education that I've been on for like 12 years leads to this. I feel very lost even though I'm exactly where I've intended to go