To quote the poet:

When I talk about the social ills
Or the alcohol fix
Or the potent pills
Understand that I wrote it with a soul to fill
I have to sketch myself a new home to build

Which is another way of saying, you have to have an outlet for your bullshit, or it'll come out at inappropriate times.

I have the exact same issue. It's so upsetting when you tear into someone who really doesn't deserve it but you just can't let it go in the moment

me: 💀