The unfortunate corrolary to this is that if you are fueling your tasks with anger and caffeine, letting go of that anger can be supremely demotivating. Trying to be a healthier person to be around can turn around and sap your will for your efforts. At least that is how my experience has been.
So you're saying substitute more caffeine, or are we gonna try a different emotion?
How about envy? Pick one person to be really jealous of and let that drive you to new heights. Or become a Sith.
Or just do insane amounts of Adderall. (You can also always sell it fast if ya need to)
Maybe the upgrade to this can be righteous anger, like an anime hero, lots of screaming and yelling but it's out of raw determination rather than hatred for all things lol.
I'm over here doing both AND while medicated. Though most of the rage comes from bumping heads with people that don't have ADHD and keep pulling my attention away from shit. Sometimes the normal "hey check this out real quick shit is funny" or to dump a different problem/task on me. Because I am unfortunately the person that has fixed enough weird shit and they seem to refuse to remember stuff I have shown them (time after time after time). Which means I get stuck having to rush all the shit I was doing before the interruptions and end up staying later than everyone else to not forget what I need to do the next day.
I have begun giving a "me warning" to new folks to let them know that I might come across as an absolute asshole and very short with them at times. But that they should just be aware that I am not actually mad at them personally, and to be direct with me right back if I go too far and say something (like "too far man" or similar) as I will actually try to correct myself.
I suffered a job exactly like this for almost a decade. Public facing, helpdesk kind of work. Obviously I was also assigned office-like busywork as well.
So the entire job was just having my brain ripped between "What was I doing?" And "Excuse me fix my problem sir, but let me ramble about how frustrated it makes me for like 20 minutes first because you're cheaper than a therapist!"
I'm still trying to undo how much that place screwed me up.
cries in high school teacher
I'm trying to get out of the field but it isn't easy. I chose the wrong career 😆 🤣 😂
Sympathetic hugs for you! 🫂
I feel your pain friend. I'm sure you're a fantastic teacher though! But I bet the constant focus-breaking and admin side of things puts a serious strain on you!
I found myself teaching a martial arts class regularly as a side thing. (Classes across all age groups), and even though people think I'm "so outgoing", lemme tell ya...the martial arts part is the least exhausting part of it! 😂
I hope you find something that still feels fulfilling but allows you to work more naturally. :)
Thanks so much for this post! ❤️
I actually did get good at it and even experienced the same via masking. Unfortunately, masking and perfectionism are not sustainable over a whole career and what sucks is that the teaching field tries to (in my experience) keep people within the education discipline via guilt and a lack of training outside of the classroom.
Anyway, I don't totally regret my career but it's time to move on. Thanks for the good wishes and response, friend.
Yup! By the latter quarter of my time in college I was up to 10 cups of strong af black coffee before midday, and a quarter pack of cigarettes. Then the pandemic hit and it was harder than ever getting cigs and was forced to quit cold turkey when I got infected. Not dealing with traffic also made the anxiety I got from coffee not managable and had to tone that down too.
I've managed to reduce my coffee intake to once a day at most, early in the AM. Mostly for the flavour. A good shot of espresso with condensed milk does wonders, but will leave me somewhat jittery since my resistance has dropped so much.
I kinda miss drinking coffee from 6am to 10pm.
Oh, does decaf make good espresso? I got pretty spoiled with my taste, living in a coffee producing country, lol.
decaffeinating likely removes a few flavor compounds inevitably, but in my semi coffee snob experience I've had plenty of flavorful decaf espresso
That was me when I worked in an office with a fancy coffee maker. Current place I'm down to maybe 2 cups (well, they're XL, but there's only 2 of them!)
for me personally, walking into door frames and accidentally breaking ceramic and glass objects
