My father used to hurl verbal abuse at me and call me a bitch for arguing back. My mother told me I was half to blame once he started to get physically violent because I was always "provoking him." I thought I really was an evil, angry, awful person!
Now that I've escaped all that I have a huge appreciation for the part of me that is a fighter. I speak up when people are treating me or others poorly. I've been the only one to notice when others were being creeped on and violated and I've been the only one angry enough to do something about it. Sometimes it is stressful how little others seem to care, or how hesitant they are to start conflict, and it makes me worry occasionally if I'm really the one causing discord. But I've gotten enough thank-yous from people I've stood up for to finally convince myself that this is a good quality of mine, not a bad one.
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My father used to hurl verbal abuse at me and call me a bitch for arguing back. My mother told me I was half to blame once he started to get physically violent because I was always "provoking him." I thought I really was an evil, angry, awful person!
Now that I've escaped all that I have a huge appreciation for the part of me that is a fighter. I speak up when people are treating me or others poorly. I've been the only one to notice when others were being creeped on and violated and I've been the only one angry enough to do something about it. Sometimes it is stressful how little others seem to care, or how hesitant they are to start conflict, and it makes me worry occasionally if I'm really the one causing discord. But I've gotten enough thank-yous from people I've stood up for to finally convince myself that this is a good quality of mine, not a bad one.
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