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  • JuneFall [none/use name]
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    1 year ago
    CW Stream of consciousness

    I have one of those weeks in which when I try to switch up my gender expression I feel like a fake. It is sometimes fun to just mirror some looks from historical media references, you know? Then again I am feeling comfortable with myself and don't really care much about conforming with my expressions as the circles I am kinda make me feel fine and not pressured to conform, which means it is chill.
    So I am basically happy with myself and yet feel as if I ought to feel negative about myself to be "allowed" to do what I want. Which of course is wrong.

    Might end up with being fine with how I look and okay-ish how people see me, with not really feeling the need to conform to something (unless it is for want) and being okay with myself. Some fluidity, some non-binaryness and some bi-instead of pan seems to fit me (the inclusive kind of 2+ whatever; with some silly reasons for why pan doesn't fit me)

    That said, seems not everyone sometimes thinks about being another gender or having different physical make up, huh? Was quite surprised to hear that. Reminded me of how not everyone experienced moments of depression in uni.

    Queer representation in media does make me quite happy. I noticed, the majority of media moments in which I felt emotional were related to that.

    Met a transshork-happy qt-pie who I think is nice, but who has a much different connection speed. It feels as if she wants a lot of emotion quite quickly and also tried labels quite quickly and I am more waiting for the seeds to sprout in my heart and connection as well as familiarity to blossom, so not sure how to deal with that in a nice way (like figuring out what we want to do with each other takes a much more prioritized place than what labels would be, like the "what do you/me/we want" and "what do we do about it" and "in what way" with "which means"? instead of labels).