Will look into it—most likely after my semester ends

THE AGONY OF BEING PERCEIVED THE FLESH DOES NOT KNOW BUT IT FEELS IT, IT'S MADE TO, IT MUST, IT ANCHORS AND YET IT CLAWS, A REVERBERANT CRAWLING, IT LINGERS, IT STAYS, IT HOLDS FIRM AND IT MOVES ON A JOURNEY THROUGH THE SKIN, UNDER SCARS, INSIDE, IN PAIN, IN REMEMBRANCE, IN FEAR. IN HOPE.

unfortunately the only solution to this that I've found (besides properly medicating yourself in cases of physiological barriers, of course) is being willing to be very bad at something for a while until suddenly you realize "wait I'm way more put-together on this than the average person???" and then it becomes a bit more fun because it makes you feel like you have a strength.

The other unfortunate thing is that you are going to have to clock whether or not a hobby will be fulfilling for you, like, six months or more of regularized investment before you actually start seeing signs of it. You aren't exactly going to know, and sometimes it just won't work out despite your time and effort. just how it is.

In my case, it really helped me to view the tedium as goal-oriented; I want to make a game, so I'm going to learn what I need to make a game.

Almost four years ago I was absolutely dreading the idea of being responsible for the music because I felt like I was genuinely dogshit at composition in a way that was irreparable. Late 2021 I pushed myself into trying it despite that. This semester I was personally recommended by a previous professor of mine to be in a more exclusive composition workshop with a visiting prof. In January 2022 I was making shit like this. Less than six months later I made this. Another six months, made this. this week, here's a rough snippet I whipped up wholesale in 30 minutes over lunch with a sandwich in my free hand. This isn't religious devotion to the hobby, this is like spending a couple hours a week tinkering for like a year and then afterwards being just sporadic enough to not get totally rusty.

As I've seen it put, the time will pass anyway, and I used it to turn something that was fundamentally embarrassing for me in a way that I was bargaining to get it off my plate into something that makes me feel happy about myself. The primary question of a hobby is always "does this make you happy," you're not going to find out until you're knee-deep in it. The investment is daunting–my executive functioning is shot, so I totally get it. Sometimes you're hooked, sometimes you gotta get in the mud with it until you understand it.

sorry if this is sorta grandstandy, I just kinda had almost the same thought process about this all a bit ago and it took a while of wading through the muck for me to finally have it click for me. hope it all works out for you,

what do you mean people are using it for epilepsy. it's already bad enough. are we at the social nadir where we're putting seizures in the 'hysteria' set too

we need to beat the "omg you people can't do anything" post OP to death with hammers for egregious discourse crimes at this point

Jester in motion bears ordinances:

Shadow of the Keighley.

1.02e18th Brumaire.

The veil will be lifted.

The campfire is coming.

-NL

UFO 50 sadly does not have a GOTY nomm, I did split the indie ticket between it and Balatro though (painfully because I also really liked Animal Well)

nah no worries, just taking the opportunity to explain myself generally to the site

i'm super overloaded with school stuff until december, any emotes that I have added since like august are ones i just squeeze in there when I have a minute

there’s going to be a GOTY orchestra arrangement of a song bought on fiverr

Anything other than SotE on principle that I don’t want a DLC to win because they specifically made an exception for it and it’s so fucking boring if it takes it home after Elden Ring already won GOTY—but specifically Balatro because it makes everyone except for Northernlion and his audience mad. It’s not like it’s even a joke pick, it’s like, it took up most of my playtime in the year therefore it’s a contender.

give balatro GOTY it would be so fucking funny

Biscuit and Mio don’t get along, everyone’s still adjusting to Gnocchi, but otherwise they’re all fine with each other (and the dogs ) thus far

lock up all voters

not gonna excuse the SA, it's egregious and even if it is supposed to be a thematic thing w/rt Turbo Granny-possessed Okarun jumping through the phone to save Momo given Turbo Granny essentially being a wrathful spirit carrying out the rage of women who'd been SA'd and murdered, it's still very fucking tasteless and isn't handled well, nor is it CW'd at all properly. Relatively, Chainsaw Man handles the portrayal of sexual abuse infinitely better, and even then it's still a bit iffy by nature of it, but I digress. My recommendation of Dandadan is very much in spite of the first ep/chapter.

However, Okarun isn't really the nice guy archetype, if we're thinking the same thing w/rt what that consists? he's just kinda dorky and stilted, so it can read like that initially. It's not really the direction they take him at all. His whole characterization is more about self-isolation, if anything.

I've been meaning to write an analysis about how one of Dandadan's major running threads is the consistent and very intentional subversion of first impressions w/rt characters. I should probably get to it sometime.

trump-elon fallout is going to be so bad that elon's going to add 'politically homeless' to his bio

it's so fucking good, I've been saying this for a good bit and I'm so glad more people are coming on board with it now due to the anime