American education pushes the idea of meritocracy very, very hard, snd so when this great Invisible Hand has Walmart rejecting your applications and you're despised by those around you for being a burden, you either do what capitalism wants you to do - rid the world of a useless eater - or you find some other framework that says you have an unconditional right to breathe air and take up space.

Even within a leftist framework, the valuation of "workers" over all else is still alienating when you're part of the lumpenproletariat. The sort of interpersonal abuse of power a disabled person is expected to gi through and be thankful to lead to a real antipathy towards hierarchy, and I don't want to create the conditions for that sort of domination - domination in the name of providing for someone's needs can be profoundly abusive and traumatic.

So yeah, my political autism and anarchism are not really separable.