I've been smoking weed half my life, though in the past 5-6 years it definitely increased now that i work at home. I also used to sell it so I would always have a decent amount on me.
It started to feel more like a compulsion instead of just getting high. I would pack the bong and smoke it and be like, "why did i do that". Plus my tolerance is way too high, Ill rip an infused joint and not feel much, making me question myself more.
I don't drink much. Ill get a 6 pack every other month maybe and then when it's gone i don't get more for awhile. So i decided to test myself: I just wasn't going to buy weed when I ran out. I was going to try and treat it like a 6 pack. It's been 5 days no weed which is probably the longest break I've had in a decade.
Anyways if i can do it you can too, and i appreciate your support. Love you Hexes.
I totally get it. The trick is to enjoy sobriety as well. Sometimes being sober sucks. That's when you drink and beer and light one up. However, it's also healthy to find comfort and familiarity in just being sober. Being fully present in your own skin and thoughts. If you can't, you need to figure out why that is. There is something in your life that is eating away at you that you are trying to escape. Work on that and mental addiction problems are a lot easier to deal with.