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  • ashinadash [she/her]
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    10 months ago

    Hiii, perceive me as I bitch abt hexbear being the actual last place that I talk to people, which is kind of sad but eh.

    I know it's a problem doing my socialising exclusively online, because the internet is insane, but I've preferred talking to internet people since I was like 15 or something. The tism gives me alarmingly poor social awareness, and knowing that gives me really bad social anxiety and paranoia, which is not great. Also I am prone to slipping into monologuing mid-conversation and I suspect it's offputting please help me.

    Talking to people irl is so strenuous and awkward that I just don't do it, plus where in meatspace am I gonna find the time or venue to ramble at length about weird books, or video games I don't like, or meta-observations about social interaction? I just do it online, but also my social interactions have been getting progressively worse in a lot of ways. It's unhelpful that genuinely having a weird, contrarian opinion seems to put people off, and it's unhelpful that I have so little in common with the average "normie", even queer or neurodiverse ones, I just don't see any of my talking to people going well. A few months ago I thought I had friends, but I eventually realised I was the one reaching out and talking with them literally 100% of the time, and as soon as I stopped putting in 100% of the effort, I literally just never got another message again. People just stopped talking to me, very cool.

    So here I am on Bear Website®, almost totally socially isolated & using Demoncracy@lemmygrad-dot-ml's good-faith thread to post an insane, neurotic screed about my inability to talk to people oh-shit

    • Dꫀꪑꪮꪀᥴ᥅ꪖᥴꪗ@lemmygrad.ml
      hexagon
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      10 months ago

      I was the one reaching out and talking with them literally 100% of the time

      me my entire life until recently. I randomly found one friend who reaches out. She is quite toxic at times, but it's nice to have someone reach out. I hope you find such person. :3

      I too hyperpost here. I wish people interacted with me more. :((((

      • ashinadash [she/her]
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        10 months ago

        That would be super cool, but where do you even locate people at? I used to message people from a stupid queer discord server, but I have the social skills of a dead snail and also so many of them were libs aaaa

        What's the definition of hyperposting, but I think you post well fwiw. Can relate though, getting more (You)s on Hexbear would be rad.

        • Dꫀꪑꪮꪀᥴ᥅ꪖᥴꪗ@lemmygrad.ml
          hexagon
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          10 months ago

          Discords have all the worst people on them. Any good friend I ever made was randomly bumped into when I played multiplayer games.

          I just made up hyperposting. It's when I'm hyper and I post (a lot because I'm hyper). :3

          • ashinadash [she/her]
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            10 months ago

            I HATE MUTIPLAYER VIDEOGAMES I HATE NULTIPLAYER VIDEOGAMES peppino-angry

            Attention Deficit Hyperposting Disorder

            • Dꫀꪑꪮꪀᥴ᥅ꪖᥴꪗ@lemmygrad.ml
              hexagon
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              10 months ago

              More like Attention Desiring Hyperposting Deliquent. >:3

              I love multiplayer games or rather used to. I hate the corporate slop. It's been years and practically no good games release. Yet the prices skyrocket! And so many layoffs! I wish they laid me off, so I could get garden leave and focus on looking for a new job. :((((