Ohh yeahh you're probably right, my bad

There's a tracking parameter in the URLs you posted, could you remove it? it's everything after the & including the &

People here are shutting you down? Is not okay if that's what you mean. Am not sure what you mean entirely but.... I think I feel the same sometimes :/ Conversation moves so fast on here, I have missed participating in so much stuff just from times where I wasn't feeling well and had to for a while and then I forgot about it or threads got locked or "too much" time passed to post about it

Btw, I rly appreciated your reply to me like a month ago about ideas for my gender math thing :3 Still thinking about it, just went through a bad time shortly after I posted that and logged out for a bit, then the thread got locked ofc :/

I have a half-finished formal proof in Metamath of a thing™ based on something one of you said even hehe, if I finish it I may post it sometime. Btw btw, if you like to infodump about math you can come do it here: https://hexbear.net/c/mathematics (unsure if you saw this new comm I asked for). I am cooking up some posts rn but social battery been quite depleted from holiday stuff lately, sometime I'll post :P

I rly hope so too

I need to look up info about political stuff near her, tell her about some of it and see if she would be interested in checking it out. Even DSA or smth would be incredible cuz she has been tuned-out from politics like.... all of her life til now. She maybe wants to get in the struggle :3 (even if it's likeeee 60% TDS reasons rn lol)

Sending the secret command to Lunokhod 2 to blow up the moon rn

Nah but fr I rly hope things get better for you soon, corpse-body or rent situation or otherwise . I hope Dragon Quest is refreshing, is good to just chill with piece of media for a while during stressful times

Ping me if you post about Mice Tea, I just looked this up cuz I never heard of it until now but this looks sooo cute hehe. Maybe I should play this

Furry lesbian transformation visual novel...... wait wait, transbians kissing even??

I am afraid to look anymore for fear of spoilers lol, also Steam won't let me in to store page cuz I won't log in smh

My mom started using my non-deadname without me even asking :O

She still uses the other one in a lot of contexts still (talking to friends about me) but it was still really, really nice to see especially after she was so dismissive (read: transphobic) when I started talking to her about my transness initially

I haven't rly talked about it with her like... in-depth and seriously yet but stillllll

Uhhh is a land of contrasts or something

Have been so surprised by her recently, she's even been getting into left politics recently. Some of it is Trump derangement syndrome but like, she's using my name now without even asking and we've been talking seriously about communism and anti-imperialism for the first time in my life. She has even expressed wanting to get involved with some kind of left organization (I haven't recced her a communist party or something quite yet lol). People can actually change, there has to be hope for all of us

Maybe part of it is I am actually quite okay at talking communism (without even saying that word hehe) with people now lol, a lot of it is cuz of this site besides reading more and spending a little time (not enough) in orgs

You're sweet for mentioning me

Not been posting much for last week cuz social battery been very very low (and still is tbh)

I'm cooking up some math posts rn, sometime I'll post them

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https://hexbear.net/post/4122168

Bureaucrat has fallen

But at least I can now spell bureaucrat without looking it up

Also hiii, welcome back

I've been struggling with sleep issues for a long time, it's so literally exhausting, existentially even. Just start to feel faint and barely even consciously present in the world which makes it even worse cuz now you have to push yourself harder and harder to get chores or tasks or work done which just adds to the stress and insomnia. Horrible cycle that's been worse for me lately since they gave me lisdexamphetamine for my ADHD which lets me mess up my sleep even more if I'm not careful lol. And even today I am quite tired from sleeping badly :(

Do you get enough exercise? Everything in this paragraph is just factors influencing my sleeping I have noticed but if I'm not getting enough exercise and/or spending too much time sitting with screens it's like.... I burn all my mental energy and I get totally exhausted but physically I'm just not tired and it's really hard to sleep. Another thing for me is light regulation. I sleep way better if I adjust the colors toward red and brightness of screens close to bedtime (going without entirely is..... uhhh difficult lol) and especially if I can keep it very very dark wherever I'm sleeping. The latter part is very difficult for me unless I wake up before dawn cuz I hate wearing sleeping masks and it's difficult to control ambient light levels, especially in the morning. Also most "blackout" curtains, at least at physical stores, are shit seemingly lol. Another rly important thing for me is "winding down" for an hr or 2 before bed, otherwise I will often end up in some kind of weird half-asleep state where I'm still doing stuff like stressfully writing code or smth in my head without actually resting

You could (and probably you have if you've been struggling with this :/) also try supplement-maxxing sometime lol. OTC things that have also worked for me include:

Melatonin. This one is essential ofc, effective and safe but quality of individual products varies widely

Magnesium oxide. This one makes me quite tired and foggy after I wake up though and is quite slow to take effect, usually hours. Have been wanted to try some of the other forms of magnesium which apparently are much better absorbed by the body. Usually I reserve this one for if I'm so tired and stressed and I just need to sleep no matter what

Valerian root and chamomile. These are legit ime hehe but is best to be careful with them cuz "natural" stuff is usually quite harsh to your liver and, at least in the Burgerreich , the industry is entirely unregulated so sources vary a lot in safety and efficacy. They also have fast diminishing returns if used repeatedly day after day ime. Chamomile is mild but there is an effect for me and even the psychological experience of preparing the good-tasting chamomile tea and drinking it is pretty calming. Valerian root, especially if you get more concentrated extracts, is much stronger. Scientific evidence for their effectiveness is kinda all over the place but yeh

Is all kinda expensive, even a bottle of melatonin pills costs me like 10 dollars now :(, but can be very helpful sometimes

Rly hope you can get some good sleep soon

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(does lying awake all night count as fighting?)

As commander of the People's Liberation from Sleep Army I say it is, under communism you will be able to sleep as much or as little as you want (including not at all)

I hope you get some real rest soon though, insomnia is awful 😞 🫂

Same to you

Oh fuck, math mega

Too eepy for math today

I have been so totally wrecked by insomnia last few days it's honestly embarrassing, now I have to do this uhhh thing for like 13 hrs today and I'm so tired

Does anyone wanna join me in a people's war on sleep? Am I gonna die? I haven't been NOT sleeping but I am not sure what to call that activity I did for like 6-12 hrs a day It's never been this bad before, stuff with my family stressing me out

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