He just fucking called me today out of the blue. We haven't IRL seen each other in 9 years. We videocall once in a while but it's becoming more and more tense. Like ffs, chuds can't just not talk about vaccines or trans people for an entire conversation. Jesus I manage to hold it in and not mention Western exceptionalism every chance I see it.

The thing is that I still hold a lot of gratitude for this friend for everything he's done from age 18-36. I was a super undeveloped plant before he took me in and taught me how to be a human, interact with people, talk to girls, have a sense of humour, do drugs, start a bunch of hobbies (I must have picked up 5+ pastimes from him teaching them to me), go to the beach, etc etc etc. Like half of what's good of me comes from him.

He was always a great guy and pretty smart. He's mostly been a giver his whole life. But petite bourgeois background and all, and now he's on the Joe Rogan - Jordan Peterson train. He's a few steps away from r/QananCasualties. As gently as I can, I tell him to careful with that shit. "DM that to me if you have to, but please don't post it on Facebook" or "That guy is a non-scientist, but hey there's an abundance of peer reviewed articles I can show you on the topic". I've never actually called him a bigot, even though he probably deserves it.

He might be one of the 2-3 people I'd drain my savings or donate an organ for. But despite gratitude, I'm really not looking forward to meeting. He's certainly gonna talk my ear off about vaccines, steroids, trans people, the omnivore diet, and how terrible homeless people are. Am I supposed to invite him up to my tiny flat (which I love) with my poster of Lenin, DPRK flag, bust of Stalin, and a bookshelf full or theory. I quite literally threw away all the liberalism. I definitely don't want to take off my N95 in front of him; I will get shit about that and being vegan (again).

I talk to IRL comrades and the consensus seems to be to "manage" conversations with him, like one does with their grandma. Change the subject, ignore what he said, take a piss or pull out my phone when it's too much.

Sorry and thanks for letting me rant.