A series of thoughts I noticed that might be familiar to some here.
"I don't have emotions"
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"All my emotional presentations are fake"
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"If people treat me better for my fake emotions, it's because I'm manipulating them"
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"I don't deserve the sympathy I get"
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"I shouldn't present any emotions in order to not extract underserved sympathy"
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"I don't have emotions"
Obviously a lot of these thoughts are factually incorrect, but it doesn't matter to my silly brain. Laying them out clearly like this helped me with it, so I hope it helps other people too.
Yeah I've felt things slightly similar to this, I guess. Not the whole cycle, but I do question if I should even bother expressing emotions. That's mostly because my intense emotions are related to all my moral-political oppositions to this world and phenomena in it that normie coppertops are going to either exclude or actively harm me if they hear about them. So it's like, I can be honest and more harmonious with myself and likely get ostracized or attacked or I can be as silent and non-committal as possible to avoid that but further my negative views of people and society because of it.