I never got into it and I feel like I'm missing a huge social part of my life. I've tried alcohol and it just tastes bad. Maybe if I had enough to get inebriated I'd feel different, but so far nothing about the experience of drinking has been good. Also I grew up around Baptists who don't have drinking in the culture, so maybe that's part of it? My parents never had alcohol in the house and there was never beer/wine at family gatherings. I never even saw a full glass of beer in person until I was like 23.
Bars are too loud and there's too much expectation to drink, parties have the same problem, drinking at home alone sounds sad. I go to concerts and I'm the only person without a huge glass of beer. People hand me drinks and I'm like "nah" and they get mega confused.
What do I do
Is this the opposite of a problem?
The one time I think I was actually intoxicated I just started crying at people and saying open personal stuff about my family abusing me, stuff I wouldn't normally say but normally I don't say anything to anyone at parties. It wasn't a good time. I don't think I'm the fun sort of drunk.
You can realize pleasant effects of alcohol without being drunk. I haven't been proper drunk in probably a decade now. Most people past 30 at social gatherings just have 1-2 drinks. It's really only college-age people that have this myopic focus on drinking to get drunk.