I wish coffee was a big drug for me like everybody else.

This is gonna be stupid and vague but my brain only shifts into high-activity write-mode at like 2 or 3 am. I get hit with genuis ideas and brilliant little plots, and then I have two options: wreck myself on an all-nighter before work, or sleep on these ideas and be unable to write jack shit next morning.

It's so stupid, all through the day my brain is asleep, then at night I become borderline manic and wanna write shit. Why, pls help.

BIT IDEA: 48 hour days where I get that maybe four hours of being free from anxiety-inducing external pressure. Just dont fuckin sleep lmao.

  • BioWarfarePosadist [she/her, they/them]
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    3 months ago

    I decided to look it up and I wasn't completely wrong. The correct term is "Revenge Bedtime Procrastination" insomnia is a bit less voluntary sounding, while "Bedtime procrastination" sounds more like a choice, which for many I assume it is.

    I used to have it really bad, staying up all night to do mainly gaming, because it was a about the only thing to do at 5am in the morning, and didn't live anywhere close to a Konbini Store .

    Now I'm older and midnight is like latest stay up time. Probably shocked it out of my systems trying to moderate this website in the early days when I was the only person staying up till like 6am to delete the forbidden phrase.

    • Chump [he/him]
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      3 months ago

      I'm frankly in awe of anyone who can be a moderator and not get insane insomnia. Just thinking about that responsibility stresses me out

      • BioWarfarePosadist [she/her, they/them]
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        3 months ago

        It's part of why I stopped doing it. My mental health was flowing down the drain and it wasn't worth holding on to something that was bringing me pain.

        And despite coming out trans like within the year of me leaving, I still occasionally see stuff about what a huge Transphobe I am, because I one time made a typo that accidentally misgendered someone once.