They laid off almost everyone at my old job on a few Monday's back. I was already trying to get off pot and booze because they were frankly killing me. I had started Wellbutrin but it was still the 2 week period where that stuff kicks in. When I got told that I was going to be let go I had a really bad mental breakdown. I have PTSD from having an utter shit childhood and really bad episodic MDD. I could not focus and was crying in public which has not happened in a while. I also might have been hearing voices but they are not there anymore. I ended up in a partial hospitalization program under recommendation of my therapist and while it sounded scary it has turned my life around in only 3 days of going.
Next step is they are going to be putting me on Abilify to even out the spikes I have been having. While the Wellbutrin is handling some of my ADHD I want to see if I can change it to 300mg to see if it squashes it along with my MDD episodes that its handling now. The psychologist says I should not be scared of the Abilify even tho I kind of am. She says it will even out the spikes and dips I have been having. Those are what are causing me to cry. I read on the internet too it should be helpful with my autism spectrum issues.
I have been white knuckling it alone for so long that seeing some light on the horizon makes me want to cry with joy. I just hope some of the bridges I have burned can be built back up again because I have left a trail of fire behind me. I am really hoping to figure out this whole vegan thing that I have been so hardcore in hating now that I am not consumed by thoughts of death.
Lastly, I dont know if any of you have had some experiences with Abilifiy if you do I would like to hear about them bad or good. Thank you for reading this my friends, and if you think there is no hope out there remember that other humans have beat what you have and you dont have to go at it alone.
Oh yeah, another candidate that might be worth considering if Abilify doesn't work for you is cariprazine - it works as a partial agonist at the dopamine receptors.
It's kinda tricky to explain exactly how a partial agonist works because I would only expect it'd be useful for ADHD symptoms if the underlying cause is one of the three main mechanisms that affect dopamine in the brain. So it's definitely not a surefire thing but it's possible that it might be just what you're looking for.
Cariprazine is good for a lot of mood-disorder and adjacent conditions while not being sedating like lots of the other antipsychotics.
Brexpiprazole is similar to Abilify but I believe it's newer and, due to Abilify being prescribed for autism, I believe they're either doing studies on its effects on autistic symptoms or they've recently completed them so that would be another one that might be worth trying, and it's another one with a particularly long half-life, if Abilify doesn't work out for you.