I have experienced trauma my entire life. I just got out of a very emotionally abusive relationship. I developed severe PTSD symptoms in the last few years.
I've always felt that maybe I don't think like most other people I encounter. I've always had a hard time connecting to people and seemed to attract some really bad people into my life.
I am very self aware, probably too much so. I am usually well liked and have never really had issues with social norms or anything. I do have some other habits that make me wonder. I've wondered if I'm schizophrenic before but I only meet a few of the criteria. My abusive ex tried to convince me I had borderline personality disorder, which I do have some symptoms of. However, these symptoms have lessoned since I left the relationship.
I think I might have high functioning autism, but I have never been evaluated. I am fairly intelligent and self aware so I know to hide a lot of my symptoms.
Anyways, I'm just wondering what are some traits you have?
Stimming often looks/feels like a involuntary tick but its less involuntary/compulsive and more just something you like to do. Lately I have been chewing my tongue as a form of stimming. I did it when I was a kid but I stopped for a long time it not sure why I started doing again but whatever.
Seemingly disjointed memory recollections. Like someone says something about a bicycle and you go off on some random story that has a bike in it but doesn't really play a big role in the story. as you learn to mask you learn to make the reference way more obvious so you don't seem so weird.