Idk what to do. I might be trans, might just be someone who wants to look cute and I can't tell the difference anymore. Also permanently transitioning will come at great personal cost and might be a unique safety issue. Also I never had any dysphoric thoughts before 26-27y of age. I'm 31 now I've lived most of my life as a straight man maybe just keep going lmao. But I do have gender envy for days. Point being why now. Also it'll break my mother's heart if she so much as sees me in a skirt. Dad's too lol. Say what you will about 'that's on them, not your problem, transphobes bad' I can't help but love and care about them, they've really tried as parents. they're just heavily indoctrinated old ppl with calcified brains.
I transitioned mid 30s and it took for me to be at my lowest point before I did. You should consider your own happiness in the longterm.
It sucks that it had to happen this way for you but I'm glad you were able to transition
I did and it was the best thing I ever did. It's a hard and a scary thing but in the end of the day it's your life and happiness, that's what matters. Families are difficult, nobody wants you to have regrets either. As in I have for waiting so long.. I just hope you continue expressing yourself and hide it if you have to.. to be safe.