Got back from family vacation, got on the dreaded Facebook, found out the woman who was my first gf 12 years ago, and subsequently a friend I talked to pretty frequently, had died of liver failure at 33 years old.
Looking back on it, when she was drinking 12 years ago it just seemed like a fun time. I didn't know she sustained that pace for a decade plus. Some other things took a toll too, like an eating disorder.
Anyways, I am fuckin sad, fuck alcohol, it's as bad as heroin but capitalism gotta make that $$$$$
Alcohol truly is the worst. I once saw it referred to as insidious and that's always stuck with me. It is a creeping poison that winds its way around your heart and strangles you to death. It's a fucking nightmare substance. And you can get it at any grocery store or gas station.