I re-educated myself so I can work in something where the work is helping people navigate this hell. That puts me face to face with the Othering and violent practices of said hell for all working hours of the day, but I still am able to remain saner than I was before, because I can at least help other people (within the parameters of said hell, which is incredibly taxing sometimes). I try to spread class consciousness in a way that doesn't lead into being fired. Will write my masters from a Marxist perspective as I am still not finished with my adult studies degree.

Have given up most treats or stuff that feels hollow. Thanking covid for that as it helped me drop a lot of the anxieties of what life should look like. I tend my tiny garden and spend a lot of time in nature, berry picking or just hiking. I exercise at home and have learned to enjoy it. I don't watch tv or read mainstream news, have quit corporate social media. I read a lot of theory. I am lucky in having a commie partner and a commie kid with leftist friends, so I have somewhere to vent. I spend way too much time on Hexbear to medicate my still present alienation.