Been off the site mostly for a bit cuz I've been feeling bad :(

I've been living with my family again since my life fell apart and they eat even worse than me. I have things to eat but I want to eat fresh food, stuff that you couldn't buy at a hardware store. Tired of eating absolute slop cuz there's nothing else

I just confirmed that this place has a lead water service line and I'm afraid to drink the water. I knew it probably had one before and I grew up here so the damage is probably already done but yeh

I am such a ball of anxiety I can't stop thinking about the lead water or the peeling paint here or dust from when my family was doing work on this ancient house in the most negligent way possible some months ago

I miss having a place to live where the people I live with just barely tolerate me and don't go on rants about immigrants and crime waves and demonrats and where I don't have to worry about being poisoned slowly just by existing

Anyway, whining over, most of should be bulldozed and the debris buried in a big pile which is designated a toxic waste zone , everything is full of toxic chemicals and heavy metals unless you have money and can afford the good things and it's driving me insane

It's not urgent but if you wanna help I would really appreciate it

Links for money-sending that do not identify me (I hope this means it can stay up):

https://ko-fi.com/paxctl (I think this one has anonymous money-sending capability without needing an account)

Cash app: $paxxap

Thank you for reading, sorry for asking, the online work I was doing has dried up for now :(