Hi Friends,

ADHD/Anxiety/OCD haver here. Coping with the symptoms of those 3 disorders especially around the holidays has me feeling really crappy. Mostly because of my poor communication skills with regards to my family. It’s causing stress and strain on my wife and resulted in a fight today.

I don’t know what to do, all I can think about is how much I resent myself for letting this behavior go on for most of my life and now letting it negatively impact my marriage.

I’m not here looking for solutions, but any advice wouldn’t be unappreciated.

More so, I am just looking to say out loud the thing that is eating me up inside…

I am so resentful of myself and wish I could snap my fingers and be better at life. I’m sick of people around me taking the brunt of the mental/emotional baggage I unleash on my surroundings just because I can’t handle being an adult. It’s so exhausting being me and I hate it.

Thanks for reading.

  • nothx [he/him]
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    2 days ago

    now i'm starting to wonder if you are me from another dimension because i done this same thing too.

    Hahaha, I swear I’m not! But yeah, it makes a lot of sense that this behavior isn’t just me. Makes me feel a bit better about my chances of fixing this too.

    Thanks for the helpful response, this is my first therapy experience and I feel weird about breaking up with them, but their job is to support me and give me perspective, even if that perspective is agreeing that I need something/someone new.