I’m 370 lbs and today I had a doctor tell me that people who are skinnier than me are all like that because they work out and eat right. Can I get a roll call for the people who are less than 370 lbs and eat like shit or don’t work out? Because I’m pretty sure you exist.
Also, one time I had a doctor ask me “are you sure?” 4 times after I said I didn’t have any breathing problems. Like nah I’m just big.
I have food issues like a malamute and struggled with my body image / weight from age 12 to present (3 decades and change).
aging has made everything harder except I guess my capacity for understanding and being honest with myself have improved.
I do still care more than I should about if others find me pleasant to look at, but the stakes are lower than they ever have been lol. so now I legitimately just try to find the courage and will to improve myself for general health. I quit booze completely and have accepted how awkward I am at social functions. I don't have to feel like I'm funny or cool anymore. I'm an old fuck. I quit tobacco . I get good sleep, I stay hydrated, I stretch daily, I take my medications, I monitor my BP, I walk all over the goddamn place, and I have cultivated a deep well of affection for those vegetable heavy dishes that use heat and acid instead of salt and sugar.
my personal quality of life has improved enough from these things that I'm much less emotionally invested than I was in my pcp's interpretation of my lifestyle based on how my teat panels came back. like I just never get sick or get headaches anymore. that alone is an enduring source of strength for me.
of course, unlike the last 10 years, now everything is always moving in a good direction, so there's no conflict.
congrats on quitting the booze and the tobacco!
thanks. I think quitting the booze was necessitated by quitting the tobacco. having a drink was generally a trigger for wanting a drag and I guess in the evaluation of it, I couldn't justify continuing to drink if it was going to threaten by goal to quit smoking for reasons of health. it's not like drinking itself was promoting my health either, even if I ignored it's impact on me making good decisions otherwise.
I wasn't a heavy drinker by the time I quit by any means, but I used to be in my late 20s/early 30s.
yeah, quitting booze was absolutely a necessity for me to quit smoking. Once I had a drink in me there was no stopping me from using tobacco. But I actually quit drinking because I just realized how it had taken over my life and was causing me so many problems I would never have if I just didn't drink. Best decision in a hungover haze I ever made.