Hey comrades, I'm in the hospital bed right now recovering from my 11th surgery. This one is an ileostomy bag so next week they can continue carving up my ass (yea my literal ass lol) I've always thought of suicide, especially at the beginning of these surgeries. This surgery brought it up to my head all the time, but I couldn't go through with it. It's gonna suck putting my life on hold for a fourth year and not being able to fuck with the ileostomy bag. Anyone here ever have one? I dunno I just needed to let this out. Love all my comrades.