tried to post on stormfront because i desperately needed relationship advice because my therapist is out with covid and they kept removing my posts and muted me from the sub because apparently you can't ask for relationship advice in a sub that's literally 95% people asking for relationship advice? feels cruel as fuck, and then i go into this convo blind and end up losing the most important person to me.
the person i posted all these stupid fucking songs about i keep posting in this forum. it's all so fucking meaningless now. to lose the only thing that means a goddamn thing to you and have some reddit scum laugh at you and mute you makes my blood boil.
i have literally nothing left in this stupid fucking world that makes any sense except my cat. i wish i was fucking deader than dead and i wish i couldn't remember any of my life. i wish i meant anything to anyone.
its all been worth fucking nothing. i always lose in the end. always the butt of the fucking joke.