But I cannot stay in Germany. I do not function here. I cannot do anything. Literally. So I will be going back to Ireland, in spite of having no job or housing there, in spite of getting 0 positive or just 0 any responses from jobs and housing there. So I will be homeless. I will be jobless. With my medical debt growing, since I won't have an income to pay it, but I still don't falter, because the worth of being able to communicate freely is one one may not fully comprehend until they're secluded.
I have never interacted with them apart from messaging them when I was going homeless before I ended up in Germany to avoid that, and the response I got from them was so stupid and insensitive I opted to try going to a country of which language I don't speak and know no one in. Based on the experience of my friends who were homeless and used those services, they're very unsafe for queer individuals. Sex abuse happens. So does violence. The people who are supposed to help ignore it or target the victim. It's grim. But I genuinely cannot stay here.