I am crying so before someone gives me some shit response, please take that into account and just fucking don't.

I was supposed to have the surgery this month. Instead it is in a month and a half with presurgery scheduled half a month earlier instead of a few days so I will be dysfunctional until the surgery for much longer, including pain and severe issues sleeping with possibility of ending up in ER if I get unlucky. I spent three fucking weeks waiting on the date. I had to beg daily even though they themselves state my case is very fucking bad. I continue living in humiliation and pain, stuck to my home.

I didn't even cry up until the news, but now I am. Why fucking lie and give me hope only to fucking absolutely dunk on me.

CW: severe negativity

I hate this country so fucking much. It's the most inefficient shit of a country and I genuinely wish it all the fucking worst. I wish for once right wingers would be right and they'd get mass replaced by foreigners who don't assimilate to their shit culture. Fuck them so much. May each and every single of them find themselves in suffering equivalent even to a fraction of what they inflict.