Maybe it’s because I literally do not give a shit about the company or it’s products or customers. I just want money. In fact, I want the opposite kind of imposter syndrome, where I trick the people hiring me into thinking I’m much more qualified than I actually am get paid a shit ton more money. Yes I know C++, Pascal, Assembly, COBOL. Please pay me $500k.
I would certainly feel bad if I got paid more to do nothing while others slave away and get paid almost nothing. But considering how many tech jobs are pointless there isn’t much one can do anyway. I’m not even bullshitting either because almost all the successful people I’ve gone to for advice say “yeah I do like 2 hours of work then watch Netflix all day.”
The other option is that you opt out of the rat race and go in the jobs that require more skill and labor, but at that point I feel like it’s just larping and fetishizing struggle and poverty. Though I’d still like to live a meaningful life... somehow. I guess I’ll use all that stolen time at work to ponder it.