Maybe it’s because I literally do not give a shit about the company or it’s products or customers. I just want money. In fact, I want the opposite kind of imposter syndrome, where I trick the people hiring me into thinking I’m much more qualified than I actually am get paid a shit ton more money. Yes I know C++, Pascal, Assembly, COBOL. Please pay me $500k.
Inposter syndrome is probably a slight subconscious acknowledgement that they earn stupid money for copying off stack overflow and googling the answer to most problems while nurses, teachers and generally more useful people in society get paid shit all. But not actually being able to complete the analysis. Also the work a lot of programmers do and the products they make are totally fucking worthless or just a detriment to society.
I for one have not had imposter syndrome working in tech since I started to understand leftist theory. I now see myself as someone just grifting a big corporate business into paying me stupid money for stretching 1 hours worth of work over 2 weeks and spending those 2 weeks playing games and doing gardening and trying to radicalise my co-workers lol
I pretty much wanted to make this exact comment, bravo.
I actually felt really guilty for a while for doing this but now I'm kinda proud of it tbh.
I'd rather work an actually useful job though but like you said most pay fuck all and I feel like I'm gonna need all the money I can get in the next few years.
Yup this is exactly it. Have the same analysis in the same kind of gig. "Software engineering" is the ultimate bullshit job, the existence of <startups> is a net negative for society, and the amount of intellectual effort that goes into gluing disparate APIs together to do meaningless things is criminal, but I'm going to milk it for all it's worth.
Huh, maybe it's time to get into tech after all