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I feel kind of silly. I spent 12-13 years knowing internally that I am a woman. I regularly "pretended" to be a woman online as a kid and teenager. I have always preferred my "feminine" features and appreciated the "feminine" side of my personality far more than the "masculine". I used the nonbinary label as a shield, protecting myself from the truth for years.
I got out of a really rough, codependent relationship in 2023. I was told a lot of really horrible things about myself that I know now aren't true, but believed at the time. A lot of things that had me examining my supposed manhood and the more toxic parts thereof. I "came out" as cis. I created the Men's Liberation community here (and proceeded to not take an active role there due to depression and... well, this.)
I read a lot about masculinity and manhood, and began using my 'maleness' as a means to get better, as a means to do better, to be better. It would allow me to more critically examine the ways I was socialized and more adequately deconstruct them. It did, for a time.
In the midst of my stint with manhood, I met a couple of people who knew the truth. Before we had even spoken to each other beyond base pleasantries, they would talk about me using she/her pronouns. After we got to talking, I felt like I could be queer again, be me again. I have found my people and my home, and in doing so I have managed to find myself again.
I am a woman. I start HRT within the week. I am so, so excited. I am a woman.
Congratulations! Welcome to the club!
If you ever need to talk about anything, I'm always available. I've also been on HRT for almost a year (it'll be a year in 9 days :3), so if you want to know more about HRT and its effects, feel free to ask.
We have a Trans room in the GenZedong Matrix if you'd like to join :3
I too would like to see you (op) on matrix.
I'm only seeing "Vetting Questions (Old)" and no new one, and can't seem to join any of the rooms.
Try using this link: https://matrix.to/#/#vetting-questions:genzedong.xyz or let me know what your username is so I can invite youI just saw you in the Welcome room and invited you to the Vetting Questions room :3
Thank you!!!
No problem :3
Same :(
Try using this link: https://matrix.to/#/#vetting-questions:genzedong.xyz
Thx!!! It worked
No problem :3