• yewler@lemmygrad.ml
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    7 months ago

    Well I mean the question is if I'm feeling it. Agreed, if I could figure that out, the answer is easy, but it's not an easy question to answer for me.

    Occasionally it happens that I meet someone that I vibe with more than I vibe with other people, and I find myself wanting to be around them more than usual. It doesn't happen very often, like maybe 5 times in my life, but it does happen. But every time it does happen, it feels like it might be romantic interest. But when I ask myself what I would actually want to change from how things are at that time, I can't think of a single thing. So I've never actually figured out what that feeling is, because it does tangibly feel very different from my regular feelings for people. I just can't figure out what it is.

    The reason I bring up the asexuality in this context is because that part's real easy. I just don't have a sex drive. So I can't even evaluate these feelings from that point of view.

    So my issue is I get these feelings, like where I enjoy someone's company a significant deal more than other people's, but I can't figure out for the life of me what that feeling actually is.