I highly recommend Susan Stryker's essay My words to Victor Frankenstein atop the Village of Chamounix to any fellow trans women (CW: includes descriptions of transphobia and suicide, also it's from the 90s and includes some outdated terms). It really helped me accepting myself on days were i just felt ugly and monstrous. When the world creatures you, sometimes you need to spit it right back at them.
I just kind of work around that by being in love with people's disapproval. I lowkey want everyone to hate me a little because I find their scorn highly amusing. On the downside this has ended up straining relationships with people I otherwise wouldn't want to piss off because I barely even register a interaction with another human being unless someone gets mad at me
Sometimes i see genuine horror in the eyes of bigots when i'm walking down the street and i must admit it's kinda fun somebody as harmless as me can scare the shit out of them.
I highly recommend Susan Stryker's essay My words to Victor Frankenstein atop the Village of Chamounix to any fellow trans women (CW: includes descriptions of transphobia and suicide, also it's from the 90s and includes some outdated terms). It really helped me accepting myself on days were i just felt ugly and monstrous. When the world creatures you, sometimes you need to spit it right back at them.
I just kind of work around that by being in love with people's disapproval. I lowkey want everyone to hate me a little because I find their scorn highly amusing. On the downside this has ended up straining relationships with people I otherwise wouldn't want to piss off because I barely even register a interaction with another human being unless someone gets mad at me
Sometimes i see genuine horror in the eyes of bigots when i'm walking down the street and i must admit it's kinda fun somebody as harmless as me can scare the shit out of them.