Thank you!

I put aside a quarter of my rent this week, as I'm determined to pay it myself.

But I need toilet paper and more money for food. I went shopping and got what I could, pork chops mostly, but it wasn't enough and will be gone soon.

I talked with my boss today that I can't keep killing myself like this. I can't afford to eat enough food to make up for my energy expenditure. My job is literally killing me, mentally and physically. I can't stop shedding weight, and that's while I'm putting on muscle, so I'm actually losing more in a way. I'm down to 139. I'm 5 10 and broad shouldered. That's way too light.

I've got job applications out and I've got in touch with some contacts that are going to look for me. I'm working to not even survive. I'm so tired. Like my soul is weary at this point.

I need to schedule therapy really badly but can't afford it. I need new work pants because I've lost so much weight mine are probably 5 inches too big in the waist. I don't even know what my size is anymore. I also need to update the addy on my driver's license so I can then get my marijuana card renewed, which is about 100 all told. That's the only way I have to medicate myself right now. I need a new phone as mine is a shitty one a friend gave me, and it crashes just using the text now app that I have to use because I can't afford a phone bill anymore.

I'm trying really hard not to let life break me but I'm struggling.

But for right now, I just need toilet paper and some groceries.

Thank you comrades, even if all you have is advice or kind words. I'm not in a great spot mentally right now, so anything is helpful. I love all you internet strangers. If it wasn't for Hexbear being the way it is and teaching me what it has, and not even accounting for the financial help, I don't know where I'd be, or if I would even still be, at all.

I hope you're all doing well.

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Thank you, again.