only because people are bludgeon by capitalism, there's a phenomenon witnessed in abuse's where the abused can become the abuser to who ever is seen as beneath them, luckily most of the socialist in my personal life have been nothing but giving, allowing me to sofa surf while homeless, financial aid when I've been desperate and if i were in a position to- i would do the same for you. reach out in a few months when i should be entering back into work. right now i could link you up with your local Socialist Party branch, or i can tell you about Unite community the section of Unite union for out of work members, £3 a month they will support you in DWP / PIP and maybe even food. they are a union though and obviously its sometimes not possible to pay subs.

I’ve had 5 different therapies and 5 or 6 different antidepreessants. None worked. How can they? My problem is poverty and they won’t solve that. Therapy and meds won’t numb the hunger pangs or reduce the stress of impending homelessness.

just going to link this in. when i said about my experience it was less to do with the material and more so the outcome. you can't therapist your way out of an awful situation or take a drug that will fill you up. instead my point was i was law last years, i didn't have cancer or any serious health conditions so we are different in these regards, instead i was incredible lonely, i hated myself for being unable to hold down a job, keep a relationship, not drink to excess and many other things, even now i think low of myself with all the embarrassment that has been in my life. but since really joining a political party and building a social circle, as well as taking part in emotional regulation therapy i have gotten better, I'm still broke, unemployed with future job prospects looming over my head and the fear of relapse.