I found I couldn't do it. I have a set of traumas that means I go into a weird fugue state where I massively undercharge by an order of magnitude and take on every liability. I think it's some sort of rejection dissociation thingy, or like just trying to end the situation as quickly as possible. This meant I had made very little money and promised a lot, and also came to hate my hobby.
Now that I have a job, the stakes are much lower, I get regular pay, and I also pretty much never have to negotiate directly with clients.
It took a really long time to get that job though, given that job searching also requires skills I do not have
Find a way to make money where you sell your services directly to the customer. No boss or job. Flexible schedule. Good money.
Yes, drug dealer is one such, but there are others.
I found I couldn't do it. I have a set of traumas that means I go into a weird fugue state where I massively undercharge by an order of magnitude and take on every liability. I think it's some sort of rejection dissociation thingy, or like just trying to end the situation as quickly as possible. This meant I had made very little money and promised a lot, and also came to hate my hobby.
Now that I have a job, the stakes are much lower, I get regular pay, and I also pretty much never have to negotiate directly with clients.
It took a really long time to get that job though, given that job searching also requires skills I do not have