Keep hiding when you hear him come. It’ll get better. You’ll leave and he’ll die, alone. She loves you but must deal with her own issues which are related to being his wife. Hang in there.
You're not lazy, you're not stupid, and you're not a loser. You just have ADHD, and once you figure that out things will get much, much easier. Hang in there.
That's pretty much exactly what I would say. I'm grateful there's so much more awareness now. But it would have been waaayy easier to find out in my teens than in my 30s, now that I have years of ingrained habits and self destructive thinking. Its like carving wood instead of shaping play doh.
No.
But, uh... I have a ROM of Sonic 2 where you can play as Sonic Tails AND Knuckles, all at the same freaking time.
Wanna play it?
Tell dad about everything going on. Don't stop telling him. He's the one who will help you get away from the bad stuff that's about to start, and keep it from getting worse. Things will still hurt, but not as much. He can help you through the confusion.
And he won't hate you for feelings you're already having. He'll help it make sense, help you find the words you keep looking for.
TW child abuse
Both your mum and dad are using you to hurt each other. The stuff they tell you, the way they hit you and scream at you, all that is wrong. It's not your fault, and I love you because despite all the evil they unleashed on you, you grow up to be a sensitive, caring, loving human being.
You have autism. You are not broken, or lazy. You spend your time daydreaming because the real world is incredibly shitty to you. Next time you see a doctor, ask them to speak to them alone, and ask them to get you the help you need.
None of those children are your friends. They're nasty bullies and you don't need their approval.
Your life gets better. Find this girl in America and be her penpal. Meet up, she's your soulmate. Tell her everything you know to help her heal, and she'll help you in return.
Memorize these dates and use them to make fucktons of money. Use your billions to plant trees. Plant as many trees as possible, as early as possible.
See you in 40 years. Sincerely, you.
Edited to add:
This is a hug, your parents never hug you and you need to be comforted. They've never told you they love you, and that's incredibly important to do every day.
It's ok to cry, don't shut that part of you off to stop the bullying.
Don't get on a motorcycle like your dad wants, you don't have good hand eye coordination or good eyesight, and the accident you get into leads to lifelong chronic pain.
You are not ugly, and it's ok to be weird! Celebrate your uniqueness!
Instead of sitting outside a locked house for hours after school, go to the library and read, you're allowed to do that.
That teacher is a pervert, don't be their friend just because they talk to you.
Spend more time with your aunts and grandmother, they love you and can help you feel normal.
Your mum lies to you about a lot of stuff, she's very damaged and taking it out on you because you arrived a month after her 16th birthday. She was r***d by your dad and made to stay with him, none of that is your fault or burden to bear.
Your brother is an annoying little shit, just walk away from him. He grows up into a nasty fascistic asshole who blames everyone else for his failures. Including you. Do not ever get involved with anything he does, especially to do with computers
You have way too much put on you for such a young person. Read these books for ways to withstand it all. I wish I could travel back in time and adopt you.
You're literally attracted to red flags, and that's gonna color how you interact with the world if you don't dodge it. You're better off following your attraction to men; somehow, against all odds, you manage to dodge the cheaters on that side of the baseball diamond.
Your parents are doing their best with the tools they have, but they're preparing you for the world they grew up in - not the one you will live in. The things you think are for other people? They're for you too. You can have them, it's just going to be a lot of work to get there.
There's a smallish coffee company up in Seattle called Starbucks. Invest early and often. And while you're up there be sure to catch a Mother Lovebone show, but don't get too attached to Andy Wood.
