"A Prayer For The Asshole Who Killed Demetrius"

You cross my mind, just like every point in time
I recollect, you took my friend’s peace in time
I re-collect, the piece you tore from my peace that time
Was already broken, by eleven.
You tore a piece, I was fifteen

You took a life, for what?
Last words I remember
“You made this shit easy. Glad you in my class.”
“Demetrius you’re interrupting!”
“I was just saying thank you!”
Class clown, class laugh.
Shake my shoulder.
A real friend.
It was easy to smile
In the face of cold weather.
Early sunset
Wash away the happy day.
Early sunrise…

Break the news

Demetrius was the first shadow cast
Over my life, days started to tumble,
Write past.
Missing from the seat on the bus.
Missing from the seat in my class.
Missing a genuine laugh.
Missing a genuine smile.
Missing a helping hand.
Missing a grateful man.
Missing the reason
To not grab my anger and lash out.
Only to swing at a schizophrenic shadow
I know you’re one of many
Still many to go.
Still watching the shadow cast.
Still missing…

I hope you find the time. You know…
…the time you stole and threw away.
Never had a chance to see another rainy day.
Never had a chance to smile again.
Never had a chance to smoke a blunt and fade away.
Never got to see what could have been.
I hope this hurts.

Follow my lead, I know you’re observant.
You watched a young man steal the room.
Time and time again.
You watched him be something he wasn’t
Something you never were.
Pathetic creature, being jealous of a boy.
You killed a light and stomped out other’s.
You observed pain in countless eyes.
I hope you observe your own.

Follow my lead, I forgive you.
Forgive you.
Take your pain and find your way.
Better take yourself to God.
Or I’ll make your way.

Time to kick you out of my mind.
Pressing my emotions on paper.
Charging at the moon, channeling
Decades of the month of May.
Will never have to hear what you have to say
Sharpen my arms. I only have my pen.
This is for me and you, think about us.
I gored your shadow.
Raging Taurus.

Shadow is fading. I said my peace.
Sunset to sunrise, we both get to see another day.
Remember what you did.
Remember what you saw.
Remember that sunrise? When you took it all away?
I do.

You’re just a shade now. Reminder of sin.
Hope you found God. I know you heard this.
I cast my light on you. Your shadow’s thin.
Your mask comes off. Look where you are.
We’re in the quarry you killed him in.