I think doubting how communist you are is a good sign if you are living in a western nation. The more anti-imperialist theory I read the more I see that I am part of the problem. I'm a beneficiary of imperialism and I'm not willing to risk my freedom to oppose the status quo which means I am kind of a hypocrite.
I do a little agitation but I can't really throw my life into anything to further communism and that makes me feel like a bit of a fraud. I can try to justify things by saying the chances of a revolution where I am are nil at the moment or that most orgs are riddled with revisionaries and feds so they are a waste of effort but that's just excuses.
Imposter syndrome is a difficult feeling but but I'd rather continue to feel like a shitty communist than to try to pretend liberalism is anything but crypto-fascism.
I think doubting how communist you are is a good sign if you are living in a western nation. The more anti-imperialist theory I read the more I see that I am part of the problem. I'm a beneficiary of imperialism and I'm not willing to risk my freedom to oppose the status quo which means I am kind of a hypocrite.
I do a little agitation but I can't really throw my life into anything to further communism and that makes me feel like a bit of a fraud. I can try to justify things by saying the chances of a revolution where I am are nil at the moment or that most orgs are riddled with revisionaries and feds so they are a waste of effort but that's just excuses.
Imposter syndrome is a difficult feeling but but I'd rather continue to feel like a shitty communist than to try to pretend liberalism is anything but crypto-fascism.