All the time. I'm only barely picking up reading theory again and have done only a microscopic amount of organizing since becoming radicalized. I like to tell myself I don't have the spoons, but I fear in reality that it's because I'm unwilling to leave my suburban home to go to the city where the organizing is done and don't want to alienate friends and family with moderate to heavy suburban kkkrakkker burger brainworms.
All the time. I'm only barely picking up reading theory again and have done only a microscopic amount of organizing since becoming radicalized. I like to tell myself I don't have the spoons, but I fear in reality that it's because I'm unwilling to leave my suburban home to go to the city where the organizing is done and don't want to alienate friends and family with moderate to heavy suburban kkkrakkker burger brainworms.
being a closet communist is still infinitely better, its awesome that you managed to develop your views while living in that context.