i think that probably your issue is that you're being "convinced" by liberals or media that the things you thought as communism "were capitalism all along, huh?" but that's the thing with propaganda: make you doubt about what you've learned and move you to think "you know, maybe you're being too extreme and need a cup of chill...capitalism is good and you have all these freedoms and sheeit. did you considered that maybe we're right about gommunism being evil? why do you think we're badmouthing about it all this time? we're doing it for your good"