So for the most part I kinda been quite disconnected from most queer communities, I find it hard to feel like I belong as a trans person. I am just too different? idk y but my experiences seems so different to everyone else but I also lack any true support so that likely doesn't help.

This last week I was feeling abit better as I was gonna meet up with my family something I dont do often and this would be the first time since I hit some transition goals, so I felt pretty good about things.

But ofc things didnt work as plan, if anything they don't see me any different and was mostly ignored the whole time. I should of expected this as for the most part they been pretty passive about my whole deal.

This has hurt alot more than I thought it would and more than anything just tired of never being understood or having any friends or anyone to talk to.

I really wanted this to be the turning point for atleast my family like it would of been something but I guess I was too hopefully.

It's been 7 years and I am still there "son" I am done with them and I think just gonna drop them as much as I can.

But this leaves me very alone, i dont know how to handle this anymore. I'm sorry to post this here I don't have anywhere else to really be and I just don't want to be alone...