like, if you're going to make me write about your company, please give me something to work off of. "This opportunity will let you develop and hone your skills" means absolutely fuck all to me.

  • grisbajskulor [he/him]
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    4 years ago

    I'm lucky to be relatively well off and hirable, and my depression is basically nonexistent compared to where it was when I was in college.

    But fuck man... job applications take me right back. Like micro suicidal moments where dying feels easier than completing a fucking cover letter. The sad thing is I've been applying to jobs that actually seem pretty cool, but being forced to reflect like that brings my self confidence to -10000

    • Phish [he/him, any]
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      4 years ago

      I'm right there with you man. Like literally today I applied for several jobs after getting rejected for one I had to put a fucking presentation together for. I'm really tired of being asked to do free work for people then being passed up for work I know I can do. It's got me all fucked up and I want to change careers but I think I'm too old and locked into the system at this point. It's really messing with my confidence.

      • Pavlichenko_Fan_Club [comrade/them]
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        4 years ago

        Dude I had that exact thing happen to me! It really sucks getting rejected in the final rounds of an interview--especially after investing so much time into it.

        • Phish [he/him, any]
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          4 years ago

          It sucks fucking ass, comrade. Sorry you're dealing with the same shit. It especially sucks coming from a leftist perspective where joining certain corporate structures seems so counterintuitive. I feel like I'm hurting myself repeatedly over something I don't even want for myself but I know I need it to survive in hellworld. Like, I'm at the stage where I'm staring out the window listening to Tom Waits sing Somewhere. But I really do believe there's a place for us, I just don't know how to find it.

          • Pavlichenko_Fan_Club [comrade/them]
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            4 years ago

            Thanks for the kind words. It was a few months ago, and I've gotten a job since then luckily. What really sucks is that it was a position working on scientific computing stuff for the government. So no profit motive, but also wasn't related to military / security state crap.

            Love that The Smiths song: "I was looking for a job and then I found a job. And heaven knows that I'm miserable now."

            • Phish [he/him, any]
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              4 years ago

              Yeah I know what you mean. I went to school for writing and the only work I usually get in my field is marketing, which I'm not on board with morally. Just have to compartmentalize it until I can find a way out.

        • Mindfury [he/him]
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          4 years ago

          I know it's probably much more hellatious in the US, but here in Australia I had this happen - I got ghosted after my third interview, where the third one was literally me meeting the team i would work with and talking to them directly, and it was infuriating.

          Worst bit was that i thought my ability to talk shit with teammates and get to know people was my best quality :bruh:

      • grisbajskulor [he/him]
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        4 years ago

        I'm sorry to hear that <3

        It's a grind, but I think it's good to try to kinda alienate yourself from the morality of it all, take a step back, think about how this is just how it is and you gotta do it. I'm sure you can do it!!

        EDIT I was gonna suggest we could all share cover letters with each other for an objective view but that's a terrible idea lol