Thanks for sharing this-- the linked post articulates things I have been struggling with for a long time but a. have been afraid to share with anyone and b. gives me a framework for understanding the pattern of occurence of these intrusive thoughts.
It's been mostly diet.. I've found that weighing myself in the morning and tracking calories consumed is enough of a leverage point to changing my behavior that leads to weight loss. Luckily I work at a place with a big campus that I have to walk around a lot, so I get a fair amount of steps in per day.
Appreciate reading everyone's comments-- it's nice to find solidarity in our communal efforts.
Last week my evening meditations dropped off for a few nights but I sat on Sunday night and want to keep that going. I normally try to sit zazen but lately have been using a guided meditation of sitting meditation that is helping me get "butt-on-cushion" time and I hope eventually I can work my way back up to just sitting.
Been on a diet since Jan. 2 and today my weigh in was 4 lbs lighter since then!
Definitely backslid on smoking weed but I didn't last night, even though I had already made my mind up that I would!
I've been working on weightloss the past week. Been using Noom, but only as a calorie counter and weight tracking. I find the simple routine of weighing myself daily and tracking calories is mostly enough to eliminate poor eating habits. And reducing environmental triggers (like I can't have a bag of chips sitting on the counter and be looking at it all day-- it has to go out of sight)
I'm in the same boat! Before the holidays I had managed to go from smoking everyday to once a week... but then since the new year I was back to my old ways. Last night was the first night without it in a week, and I want to keep that up. I too want to re-define my relationship with mj. My relationship is a cognitive distortion that whatever I'm doing, it would be better/cooler/more interesting if I was stoned. Trying to undo all of my associations with the drug and establishing a sober baseline.
Really thought this was going to be about Daniel Ladinsky, who wrote multiple books that pose as translations of the poetry of Hafiz, but actually if you read the forward it is merely poetry "inspired" by Hafiz, he claims Hafiz appeared to him in a dream with these poems. https://www.aljazeera.com/opinions/2020/6/14/fake-hafez-how-a-supreme-persian-poet-of-love-was-erased
Which was really deflating for me because those Hafiz "poems" helped get me through some angsty times in my young adulthood.
Slay the Spire- All of 2024 I've been playing solely with one character for a month and seeing how many A20 heartkills I get. I'm not a high level player or anything, I average like 1.5 wins per month, but I enjoy playing the game with some limits/structure.
Anyways I wrapped up June with a Defect win, with a deck that did most of its damage with dark orbs, which is unusual. Looking forward to July and good ole Ironclad.
Other things, I've been wanting to play Baldur's Gate 3 so bad I am considering buying a PS5. Excited about the library of games I've never played about to open up.