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Not mine but here is a directory of mutual aid groups in texas you can do ate to: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1rdMnbzYxfXFrG1DefGqN3R1zu_lan2fml2bEYRpMcRQ/mobilebasic

Did you think the ending was too sad?

Badass! Best of luck with that. Might be cool to test your boundaries and discover new skills.

Unfortunately, throughout this process people will routinely treat you like you don't matter. But don't forget that you really do.

Applying for jobs is miserable and my heart goes out to you.

Most organizations, and especially nonprofit orgs, want to fill positions with people they know. These jobs end up being de facto internal positions and get filled by friends and old co-workers.

If you can temp, contract, or volunteer somewhere that seems cool to you, you are going to be in a way better position to find out about jobs and ultimately get them. I found my current job by picking up a menial temp work and then being a reliable and nice person. A couple years later I have a rewarding position and work with cool people.

Ultimately this gives you a chance to determine whether these people are cool too. You can't really know anything about a work culture until you're in it. I once worked at a plant nursery which was staffed by nihilist drunks.

Honestly, donate your time anywhere you want. Just meet as many people as you can until somebody wants and is able to help you. Meeting people will payoff quicker than sending in applications and has the added benefit of potentially enriching the soul while you wait.

Nothing is more suffocating and regimented than american leisure

Debt! It covers so much interesting ground and is probably more challenging but I honestly couldn't get in to bullshit jobs. Utopia of Rules is also a less intimidating place to start and is incredibly good.