I didn't find any good enough hobby in this 35 years of life that didn't fade after some time. At moment I'm very empty inside, I spend half day sleeping and other half working, everything looks expansive to do, I give up on everything, I'm keeping myself alive because I'm just scared of the pain and I can't imagine stop existing.
Not need go be, capitalism is planned to eat itself at some point, and we traveling fast to that point. Violence is mostly a weapon of the enemy to keep the capital running, like with wars. I see in a better world, without capitalism, no violence at all from the people who do not care about the tribalism of money and possession.