theghostofwhoiwas [he/him]

your kind words mean a lot to me :( i know some people do still think i should die, regardless, and it's hard for my brain not to agree with them. i can't fully express how devastated i was to learn who they really were.

one sec, i will dm you

while i don't really feel like i deserve to defend myself here,

the various messages they sent each other

i literally do have screenshots of a couple messages where they flat-out lie about their age, and reference their mother treating them poorly

i'm starting therapy back up tomorrow with someone who has a specialty in working with borderline disorder. it's still hard not to feel like i should just die. thank you for not thinking i'm the devil 😞

I really appreciate your saying as much. I was just in such shock when the cops were there, and running on such little sleep. I didn't even really understand I was in trouble, like an idiot. I... have a hard time feeling like I deserve to stay alive, still.

Thank you so much for your kind words 😢 It's very hard not to beat myself up over this, like daily. I hope my lawyer can save me too, and I start therapy tomorrow, but I think it'll be a while til I can forgive myself.

Hello, comrades. this is an alt, i'm not actually new here. in a few minutes i'm going to make a post in the mental health comm. I hope some of you will take a look, and tell me if you think i deserve what i believe i do. TW for like... some really fucked up shit, though.
Solidarity forever. sorry i let everyone down.